You broke the soul contract. You know, the one you manifested a few years ago. You know, the one time you had asked the universe with a broken heart to bring to you your perfect partner. Feathers. Remember her? You manifested her. You let her go. Remember? All that spell work you did. All those love candles lit.
Feathers ran to you. She asked you for help. You ran away from her. It had been your conscious choice to have done so. You shattered her open heart. Then you wrapped a rusty metal chain around it as if…remember? You liked it, you know, hurting her. It gave you power. How you kept her waiting. She bled out your rejection. It took her several weeks to understand and then one year to accept you never intended to want to help her. No, that had not been your plan. She really needed help and she turned to you for it. But you had already decided to play the role of the mute.
You had free will. You made a conscious choice to deliberately reverse the very same request you had made to the universe. You manifested Feathers, but didn’t want to accept the universe’s gift to you. No. You had figured out it would be best to never speak to her, not even for the first time or any other time. She trusted you. That is why she took a leap of faith. I understand. You saw, and still see, the soul contract as a curse. It was nothing of the sort. It was your soul’s last blessing.
You may have never made up your mind about coming towards Feathers, but the universe has. Yes. The universe, you see, witnessed your response to Feathers as your rejection of your blessing. You kept revealing to the universe your thoughts. It heard: ‘She matters, but I matter more. I want her, but I don’t want her. She means the world to me, but I didn’t like the ways she would sometimes make me feel.’ And on, and on, you went…pacing back and forth in your empty kitchen. Nobody wants to make love to a calculator.
Why do you keep thinking about Feathers? Are you feeling remorse…regret? I can assure you there’s nothing more to think about. The universe no longer trusts your feelings, your thoughts, and especially, your words. Those prove important to you, right? Your words? Well, you lost. You couldn’t fulfill your part of the soul contract, and therefore, your legacy has been jeopardized. That’s right. You had not been commissioned to fulfill your legacy alone. You see, doing that alone was not part of the original soul contract. As well as choosing a karmic lover, rather than your soulmate, was not part of the original contract. You struggled to make up your mind. You couldn’t decide. Therefore, the universe chose for you…again. Thus, that cup of water you have denied your last soulmate to first drink out of remains greyed.
That’s all you wrote. Now it belongs to you.
Black Cat Words 